A quick update at 32 days...and counting.

It's Tuesday.

The kids finish their morning breakfasts around the farmhouse table.

Today isn't any different than yesterday.

Or the day before that.

But, 

It acutally is a whole lot different.

Because today Addy looks at her brothers and says "let's go play".

Francis is a little slow and hollers "sissy wait" so that he doesn't walk 'up steps' (as the boys call it) alone.

She pauses on the stairs.

The boys run in front of her.

She turns around and our eyes meet.

She smiles and says "it's fun having someone to play with".

And my heart just melts in that instant.

Because God is doing a work.
This sweet encounter is no small feat in our household.
EVERYONE is going through their  "stuff".
And ALL of us are trying to figure out how things work now.
The kids are processing where they fit in.
Us parents are begging the Lord for mercy daily.
Hourly.

It's been exactly 32 days since the boys came home.

And the road has been hard, and trying, and exhausting, and...

I won't go into all the details.

As there are too many to count.

And too much to digest.

And it wouldn't be understood by most.

And that is ok.

But today... 

Today I am reminded

That in the chaos of it all

In the many moments I am trying so hard to keep my head above water

He is at work.

He is knitting our hearts together.

And there is joy.

And there is pain.

In this process of adoption,
In the thick of it, 

It is beautifully hard.
And we are grateful.

...I texted this to my husband earlier today and he texts back...

"Beautiful. Thank you Jesus!!!"

Yes, thank you Jesus...