...when you wish you had something more to say than more of the same.
But, I pull up our adoption blog and see that 2 months have passed since my last entry.
Ugh.
2 more months of nothingness here.
At least nothingness is what it feels like inside sometimes.
This past weekend, Scott and I went on a leader retreat with our church. There was a part during the weekend that our pastor taught about life's struggles. He then asked others to share in a moment of lamenting. To which I opened my mouth and the words stumbled out..."our adoption journey, why the wait is sooooo long". And our pastor replied, "Take Heart".
Take heart? The dictionary states it means to gain courage. Courage...yes, it definitely takes courage to walk this path. For me, I might say my faith has definitely wavered from time to time. From one day to the next, week to week and month to month. Albeit, year to year.
I happened to pull up our adoption video today. Not sure what made me do it. Mikaela, our summer roommate from a local college, was sitting with me and I wanted to share it with her. Our kids faces look so young. This Fall, it will be 2 years since we did that video. Click if you would like to view it: SNODGRASS ADOPTION VIDEO
2 years.
I will be honest, my eyes rolled and I felt some anger swell up inside as I thought of that number.
2 years. And what has happened???
But...
this past weekend I was able to shed a few tears with a sister in Christ who is also waiting for a child thru adoption. She confided in me that she has grown tired in this journey. I felt her pain. I FEEL her pain.
Romans 12:15
"Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep."
But...
this past weekend, our pastor prayed over all of us in our church body going thru the adoption journey. He prayed strong words to our Lord.
James 5:13
"Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful, let him sing praise."
But...
this past weekend, I was reminded that we are not alone. Others are going thru this exact same struggle. And it is GOOD to carry one another's burdens.
Galatians 6:2
"Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ."
But...
He is still God. And I am still His child.
Ephesians 1:5
"He predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will."
But...
we continue to wait on The Lord and His plan for our family.
Psalm 27:14
"Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!"
Interestingly enough...as I was blogging and referring back to scripture to capture my heart in certain moments above, they were rather random - Googling verses for each. God certainly does work in mysterious ways...as He lead me to Psalm as I was ending my blog post to remind me to "TAKE HEART".
